Today was one of those days that I thought a little about unfairness.
Basically, I spend a lot of time reminding myself that even though I don’t really believe that everything happens for a reason (I used to) or that after a really terrible thing comes a good thing (I used to), I do believe that you have to get on and make the best of what you have. Call it the stiff British upper lip, if you will, I tend to sway on the side of the overwhelming realisations that life is so fleeting and so fragile that if you don’t get on with it you’re a bit of a fool.
Anyway, today was a day where I felt an ache that my mother never met any of my three children but especially Audrey.
We were in town doing some errands and I asked her if she wanted to come for a coffee break with her daddy. A double cappuccino and a chocolate biscotti for me and a glass of water and a coconut ball for Audrey and we were set. As we sat and chatted I became aware of just how much a people watcher Audrey is before her comments started about how nice that girl’s plaits were and how much she liked that woman’s jumper and how that other woman looked like her auntie Vivianne.
And the more I sat and listened, the more I realised that had my mother been sat there with her, they would have both been in their element, comparing the people coming in, discussing hairstyles and clothing and so on.
Fairness is relative, but today I felt unjustly served.
October 4th, 2012 at 10:54
I tend to regret a choice or the passing of one moment in time, but then I realize that there are so many things to be happy about that I live those to their rightful owner, the past. Of course, I know that regretting the past is pointless, but I can’t help myself sometimes. Luckily, these moments are rarer and rarer and are replaced by the time I spend with my son, building together memories. Happy memories, because indeed life is not always fair and we should enjoy every wonderful moment we get.
October 4th, 2012 at 13:14
Yes, I’ve noticed that regret is something I don’t really focus on, for mainly the same reasons as you. Building memories is so so important too!