As a method of distraction over the last few days I have succumbed to the lure of ‘Lego Star Wars’ and am currently chuckling away at how sad I am whilst deciding whether I want to be ‘Darth Maul’ or ‘R2D2’ for one of many challenges in the game!
Give me a good telling off and send me off reading or writing as this is just… I don’t even know!
First Greg mentioned it and yesterday came up with exactly the same theory, which is:
On the albums that you count as top quality check out track number 6, as it is invariably one of the best (if not the best) on the album.
I’m curious to see what others think of this and I’m now off to go through track listings on some of my favourite cds…
yet with forbearing acceptance
we say farewell
ending the road
that we traversed together
Bravely lost was the war
many battles won
infectious was the laugh
that will be remembered
Life was to be lived
friends to be made
love was given freely
and hearts have been broken
have served me well
striving for betterment
your words ring still
Though our road is no more
another takes its place
where you must deliver the message
I gave you for another
that too is yours
The Euro 2008 draw has just been made and as an England fan I am very very happy with the draw.
Euro 2008 draw
My commiserations to Scotland and Northern Ireland as there is no way you will be progressing in this tournament.
Returning from hanging up baby clothes in our apartment block’s drying room (the clothes are borrowed from relatives) I was hit by pangs of loss and feelings of expectancy at the same time. The loss, naturally, was for my mother as I tried to imagine her going through the same motions of preparing for her first child (me) and wondering how she felt about it all. Was she scared (she should have been as she was only sixteen!), was she proud, excited, curious, regretful (single mum, living with parents in 1970 conservative England)?
I asked her about some of these things when we visited at Christmas and received some answers, yet not enough and now there are no more answers, there are only guesses. I have to imagine what I think my mum went through, dealt with and had to endure as she prepared for that first child. There were three people in that house the day I was brought home to my new family and they are now all gone: Grandma in 1983 (49 years old), Grandad in 2002 (71 years old) and Mum in 2006 (52 years old).
I feel robbed of memories; they say that we tend not to remember things earlier than the age of four in our own lives and have to rely on others to tell our story. Where then are my bards, my narrators; who will tell the tale of my early years for my wife and child?
Baby is coming soon and I am terrified; not in a damaging way but positive (I hope) as I am terrified of being the worst father in the world. The fear of this should help me to avoid that particular title (although a ‘friend’ mentioned recently that someone has to assume the role… ). I have been warmed by many of my female friends expressing that they think I’ll be a good father, some stating it is due to the fact that have many female qualities and one even stating that she has the best father in the world and so she should know!
It is a limbo time, time to grieve but also to wait and I feel that this was why the events of this year have transpired as they have. I need this time to deal with mum’s death so that I can fully enjoy the birth of my child and not be consumed by feelings of guilt at experiencing joy when I have lost the woman who bore me.
Goodbye Mum and hello baby…
Last night I dreamt you’d died
I woke up and I cried Clearlake: Dreamt that you Died (from the album ‘Amber’ 2006)
To be continued…
A couple of weeks ago I was speaking to my good friend Greg, who mentioned that he was compiling cds based on an a-z of artists he was a fan of. The more he talked about his thoughts and musings whilst working out who would be on his cds I couldn’t help thinking about a similar a-z, yet this time of songs.
And then, yesterday, I received a couple of cds from kateyschultz which were… yes an artists a-z compilation (well a-m but n-z is coming) and I decided that I am going to do my cd.
So a little offer for people reading my LJ on a regular basis is that anyone who is interested in receiving this compilation (when it is done) only has to let me know of their desire for a funky, yet anal, collection and when recorded I will contact you again to get your postage details.
So watch this space!
Manchester United won 2-1 (3-2 overall) yay!!
B*stard (Blackburn) Rovers are one goal down to Manchester United in the second leg of the League Cup semi-final (makes it 1-2 overall) and that’s a score I would like to see stay as it is for the next hour or so.
It makes me feel a little ill to cheer on Manchester United PLC but against the Rovers, there isn’t really a choice.
Post note: Blackburn scored the equaliser just as I finished this… gaaah!
I’ve just found myself humming away to two artists that I really shouldn’t be entertaining… what is going on?
No of course I’m not going to tell you who they are, cause you’ll laugh!
I received my copies of my latest publication yesterday (and rather shiny they are too!).
It’s official, I have been published again!
A little ray of light in a month filled with sorrow…